I’m so fucking lonely it hurts. I am a sad, pathetic, needy human ; i require a love interest or my heart withers. But I don’t want to seek someone out. I just want to feel wanted. Taken care of. But im too young, and I look exhausted all the time, like im dying and depressed; wearing a fake ass smile and a head of messy hair. Constantly fretting about my existence. Burnt out before I ever even got started. I know how young I am, but I feel like im 40, and alone. So fucking alone. I make friends as easy as I breathe; im in a room of people who love me and I still feel alone. When will this pass? Why do I feel like everyone else is getting going, while I wait for nothing. I’m stuck. I want freedom. I want travel. I have no money, I have no time. I don’t look forward to anything real. Nothing helps, and when im alone with my thoughts, I can’t shake the depression. The longing for something I can’t pinpoint. It haunts me.